Just had to get that last journal off
it's been there to long!!!
anyway!!!
bored to death late as hell
can't wait till Halloween!!!
don't know what i'll be yet i never know till the last minute i find i get the best results waiting till i have no time and there it is atleast 2nd place
last year i was a mean lady housecoat,
slippers , curlers in my hair and a rolling pin scared the heck out of some older kids by chasing them off our yard waving the rolling pin at them
then me and my honey went to the bar (he went first to set it up told everyone that I had kicked him out and was on the war path to kick his ass(not true) damn was it funny when i ran in no one knew what to do it was more like april fools then halloween
like i said i can't wait till this Halloween!!

sitting here at the puter just makes me start to cry
she would chase the cursor or sit on the monitor
watching me type my puter baby!!
I want to scream!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
some people might think I'm crazy for getting
so upset about a cat (F*** you) she was my Baby
I took care of her
(she was the runt and had started out very sickly)
but she was better the Vet said she was???
So we took her to get fixed......now she's gone !!!!!!!!!!
a bad reaction to anestiesa (?) her heart just stopped
no warning........ now my Baby is gone and I feel
like my heart has stopped too
IN LOVING MEMORY
of
BABY
2/2/2003-7/2/2004

No I'm pissed!!!!
I feel like I'm being stalked!!!!
people just have no concept of boundiers
and overstep their bounds.................
this is my space..........
don't cross the line...........
you don't know me
you don't know my family
you don't know Dick!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you thought you knew me
you wanted to know my family
you still don't know dick!!!!!!
sorry I'm just venting................Hint............. .....

Well i have been busy lately so i've not been doing
much on line plus its been raining alot here so i dont go
on the puter........already lost one puter that way cant afford to loose another one.........anyway hope all are well and hopefully i can catch up!!!!
Love to all

this is a poem I wrote and had published years ago.. It's me it's my life and how it was....
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...............All I've Seen..............................

Looking back at my past
Youth was lost,I grew -up fast.
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Trust and faith I cannot find
Innocence was left behind
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Taken when the mind was pure
Now forever insecure.
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Hopes lost, dreams shattered
From scared child, to a woman battered
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Cuts and bruises fade away
The memories will always stay
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Taught that love can hurt to much..
Now fear the word, fear the touch
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If pain and hurt is all I've seen
What does love really mean??

By Michelle D (aka Beautifulfreak-NY)

well that's it.... that's me........